Wednesday, June 17, 2026

WINDOW

 My favorite subject in school was the window

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There was once a pillow on a bed beside a window.

Every night a head would come into the room and sleep in the pillow's lap.

Every morning, the head would wake and leave.

The pillow remained.

Day in and day out.

The pillow would glance about the room and look outside the window.

The pillow would see the day brighten and darken; the nights pass; the seasons change.

The pillow would watch the trees greening and the clouds gathering; 

the lightening flash, the storms breaking and the rain pattering against the glass.

The pillow would see the clear night sky and the bright stars drifting.

As the head slept in the pillow's lap, the pillow began to wonder,

"Is this all I am meant for? Lying about in bed all day watching the world outside?"

The pillow began to feel something stirring inside.

One spring morning, before the head left the room, it opened the window.

Into the room a spry spring breeze came sniffing and exploring.

The pillow felt the cool air ruffle across the bed.

Then, as the pillow watched, a large black bird alighted on the window sill.

The bird tipped its head to one side and another and then, 

to the pillow's surprise, 

it hopped onto the foot of the bed. 

The pillow watched anxiously as the bird hopped closer...

    closer...

        closer...

It gave a sharp sudden peck at the pillow's case!

The bird buried its beak into the pillow and pulled out a thick tuft

of feathers.

Then it flew away out the window.

"That's odd," thought the pillow, "I did not know I had that in me."

The bird returned

pecked again

and again removed a tuft of feathers.

Other birds came and did the same as the tear in the pillow widened.

The spring breeze played with loose feathers, spinning them out the window.

"At last!" thought the pillow. "I have found that within me which belongs to the world."

Soon all of the pillow's feathers were released and carried off on the wind or out by the birds.

They feathered the spring nests for the birds and flew about among the trees' branches.

They tickled the ears of deer in the fields and the noses of children on swings.

They alighted on glittering streams and sailed off towards the rivers and the sea.

"Now I know who I am. I have gone out the window and joined with the world."

The pillow was happy.

–––

The head, meanwhile, discovering the torn and empty pillow case,

replaced it with a hypoallergenic pillow

and enjoyed the best night's sleep it had ever known.


–––

For Gwenda




 

Tuesday, June 16, 2026

I STILL IMAGINE STORIES...

News and memories demand my attention. Worries crowd in among plans. Hopes and fears, whine constantly.

But I imagine stories.

No one else hears them, but they stir and evolve constantly. 

The boy, Ivan, learns the language of the birds, conversing daily with the flicker, the wren, the mocker, and all the inhabitants of the enchanted forest... 

A king gets lost in the woods, and offers riches for a way out... 

Water-bugs twirl in frenzied busyness in the creek beneath the willow; rushing about in a miniature water world. In the reeds, the old bug sits and conjures stories for the less restless ones... 

The rubber bands in the kitchen 'junk' drawer call out when I go looking for a bit of string, or wire, or tape or fasteners; 'pick me!' they cry...

They accompany me as I go about my busyness.

Entering the dense bamboo behind the house to clear brush, the story speaks:

"There are rooms we enter alone.
Destiny waits there.
She entered and met her fate:
sharp, hard, cruel.
Pricked and injured, all she was before fell
fast asleep.
All around her fierce tangles spread:
sharp, hard, cruel.
Thorny briar rose,
high, impenetrable.
Daring princes to come find her..."

I imagine stories. They glow like embers from a dying fire. 

My friend, the artist Nate Barton, writes about carrying embers. "There are things in life that do not arrive fully formed. They begin small. A question. A way of noticing. A pull toward something not yet understood. They do not demand attention, but they ask for it. And if they are ignored too long, they can go out."

Stories ask for my attention. I give them my imagination.

They fill a reservoir behind my silence.

I am only an occasional writer as this blog attests. 

My mode is speaking. I speak when someone listens. 

Now, I am only an occasional speaker. 

But I still imagine stories...

Carrying the Ember – Nate Barton


Friday, December 19, 2025

Deliver Kindness

I work part time as an Assistant Rural Carrier for the Postal Service; I’m an “A.R.C.”

The position was created when Amazon contracted with USPS for Sunday deliveries.

I'm low on the pecking order; I only carry packages and parcels and never touch the mail.

It’s mostly on Sundays, but when volume is high – as it is this time of yer - I help the other carriers on weekdays.

It's good to be of service to my fellow carriers and of course to our customers.

I feel like the fairy tale hero, Boots, the Seventh Son of the king. His inheritance is hand-me-downs such as the big clumping boots for which he is named. His brothers have gone off to seek their fortunes and, as is common in such fairy tales, they have all gone astray. So Boots goes off too, on his old horse. He goes he knows not where, to seek he knows not what.

I go off too, on all the rural routes; among apartment buildings, to hilltop mansions, through planned suburbs, trailer parks and cabins hidden in the deep woods.

I like bringing people things. I brought a changing table for a newborn to a family in a double-wide. The young man greeted me excitedly – “Just in time! We just came back from the hospital.”

Congratulations!” I said, “I’m glad I could get it to you in time.”

The warmth of that exchange was with me all day.

Boots goes with kindness: He gives a crust of bread to the ants; helps a fallen nestling back to its nest; slips a silver trout back into the stream, and so on. Small acts of kindness for him but great for the receivers.

In addition to delivering, I sometimes am the receiver. During last December’s arctic blast, while working past dark, I delivered a package across the road. When I returned, the neighbor gave me a package of alpaca wool socks. My feet walk in gratitude.

Boots comes across a starving wolf who begs to eat his horse. Boots dismounts, the wolf eats, then takes the horse’s place. The wolf thereafter carries Boots to his destiny.

I don’t have a magical wolf but I do have an L.L.V. - a Long Life Vehicle - a heavy metal box on wheels. But it is magic. When I drive that truck people wave and smile; they're happy to see the mailman. Drivers even tolerate my slow pace.

Boots' comes to a ruined castle in a land devastated by an invincible ogre. The ogre keeps a princess captive in his castle. Boots and the orincess tease out the secret of the ogre’s strength: His heart is hidden far away where he cannot be hurt.

Driving the area this past year, that fairy tale is all around - the land is devastated as if attacked by a heartless ogre. Fallen trees, tangled wires, piles of debris, smashed cars and broken homes.

With all that trauma came a weariness and a wariness.

Boots jumps on his wolf and heads off for a year and a day to find the ogre’s heart: to the great lake and the island in the lake and the chapel on the island and the well in the chapel and the duck in the well and the egg in the duck and the heart in the egg.

I drive off the highway onto an asphalt road along a gravel way up a ribbed and rutted dirt road for the last delivery of the day – and the signs appear:

“private road”

“no trespassing”

“I can't afford enough ammo for a warning shot”

I come to a cabin, and there is the last sign:

“either you're bulletproof or you're stupid”

I’m not bulletproof but I am stupid. I park near the porch and get their big box, tipping it to get my knees underneath. When I turn around there is a mountain Meema in her house dress, leaning on her walker with a big smile.

Hello,” I said, “where can I put this?”

Inside the door would be nice”

I climbed the steps and knelt to set it down. A burly young man grabbed it and took it inside.

We needed that mini-fridge, thanks for bringing it all this way up here.”

How are y’all holding up?”

Lost our shed, but kept the house - got our well and generator. Neighbors helped.”

We chatted awhile, then parted with the mountain ritual

“Be safe now have a good’n”

“Thanks! Have a good’n”

I was still smiling as I drove away. I realized ‘I've just passed a kind of test.’ I braved the gargoyles of the cathedral and stood for a moment in the holy sanctuary of fellowship.

In most versions of the fairy tale, Boots crushes the ogre’s heart and destroys him. But I'm a delivery man and the way I see it, Boots delivers that heart back to the ogre, who then becomes a mere man, full of compassion and bent with remorse.

Whatever problems we have with fairy tales - patriarchy, heteronormativity, or just plain goofiness – they show an important pattern: the hero offers service. Harvest the overladen tree, milk the swollen cow, comb the thorny nettles out – break bread with the stranger.

Boots’ story remind me: the path to the recovery of the hidden heart is paved with acts of kindness.

I have a delivery for you. I hope it gets to you in time. Take care. Have a good one.

Monday, July 28, 2025

Of Gwenda

 

   Once again the stars blew the window open, and that smallest star of all called out:

Peter!”

Then Peter knew that there was not a moment to lose. “Come,” he cried imperiously, and soared out at once into the night, followed by John and Michael and Wendy.

–– J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

Once upon a time, in the open palm of a plum tree, behind the house, beside the graves, a young girl sat with open book, staring through word windows into realms of wonder.

Her name was Gwenda. She grew up, as she knew she must. For she knew “all children, except one, grow up.” She became woman, wife, mother, and grandmother. She may have closed those windows briefly for more pressing matters, but she opened and peered through them again. Then, to the betterment of the waking world, she shared what she saw. For Gwenda had the second sight of a storyteller. She saw stories in ways no others do. She shared those stories in ways no others had. We listened and learned to see anew the storied realms she came to know so well. Like Wendy Darling, she told stories to us lost children and adults.

Then one day she began to tell the stories she saw through the windows before her desk:

Moon, full to bursting, caught in the dogwood tree, makes a path on dark water, pointing back at itself.

One light in a window across the lake, someone else is awake.

—–

The sky! On fire! Inflamed by that great star that holy writ and scientists say will do us in but now, fills the canvas of early morning with magenta, scarlet , orange and yellow.

--

Robin calls: chirrup, chirrdown chirrup chirrdown

on and on without stopping 

Yesterday the Carbon Monoxide alarm went off beep...beep...beep... beep

on and on without stopping

One says wake up it's a beautiful day

the other: Value your life. Yes.

--

I looked at the leaf of a silver bell tree. Half as big as my little fingernail. And that leaf contains...oh, yes, an epidermis that defends, shields, and protects from bacteria, insects and all other pests. And in the leaf's kitchen are the palisade mesophyll that deal with gas and that's fitting. The veins contain vessels...tiny boats... that tote food, water, and minerals. (Sounds a lot like our innards. We have what heals as well as harms inside.) I'm not fooling, all of this is really going on in every leaf appearing this spring. Seems like you could hear it. We should have a full symphony orchestra playing the Hallelujah Chorus just for the trees.

--

The wood warblers are back. I heard

one singing zoo zee zeezeezee. The same

repeatable line like the Robin's chirrup over and over

coming from the tops of the white pine tree.

This one in my pine tree is a black throated green.

–––

She spoke to us from ordinary windows and revealed a world of wonder. Her voice, sonorous and sweet, became a daily missive in written words. We, who once listened with eager ears, then listened with open eyes.

She enriched our hearts, our minds, our world.

Then the stars blew the window open… “Come,” she cried imperiously, and soared out at once into the night…

And we will come. In time. She showed us the way:

Second star on the right and straight on until morning.

Friday, May 23, 2025

THE MATRICULATION OF GWENDA LEDBETTER

 



In September, 2006, Gwenda LedBetter performed Friday's Father at the North Carolina Stage Company in Asheville, NC. One reviewer for a local paper wrote:
"I think LedBetter is a wonderful storyteller. It is no wonder that she is so celebrated in Asheville and across the state. She has a tremendous speaking voice, a fabulous turn-of-phrase, great humor and acting skills." - Meg Hale, Daily Planet, September, 12, 2006

Audiences were invited to offer reviews as well. Here is a representative sampling:
"Last night I was privileged to witness Gwenda Ledbetter re-create her life in her one woman show, "Friday's Father". Her performance was utterly luminous and incredibly transporting. It attained a level of expression surpassing mere acting.

"Time and the aging process have not been physically kind to Gwenda and John, her husband. Yet, last night, Gwenda LedBetter transcended all that "old" stuff with an elegant, soaring portrayal of her life and times that left this old man in tears--tears of joy and sadness."
 
"When Gwenda finished her story, tears filled my eyes and I was left speechless..."
 
"Gwenda - A role-model for us all. Your life - mine - all of our lives are stories. In yours I relived Father coming home too. Thank you for your gifts and generosity."
 
"The beauty and the power of showing us at the most tender times. Wonderful!"
 
"Your storytelling touches my soul."
 
"Thank you Gwenda, for touching our hearts and giving comfort."
 
"Your performance enriched material which was rich in itself - full of the salt of life itself. Thank you."
 
"Thank you for the great experience of sharing and connecting stories in a spiritual way!"
 
 
"Thank you for sharing your beautiful story of your father. I so loved your language of love in your heart. I blame my father for nothing, I forgive him for everything."
 
"Your story makes me proud to be human."
 
Audiences reference soul and spirituality; write of feeling touched, connected, and transported. This is a dramatic event: a single individual, speaking of particular places, people, and events, which brought about a collective epiphany that makes the audience, in the words of one listener, "proud to be human." How was this accomplished?
 
Gwenda LedBetter enters the stage and greets the audience. She gives thanks to her supporters and then invites everyone to breathe with her. We take three deep breaths because 'three tells all'. We are calmed and centered by this simple ritualized act of breathing together. Twice more in the evening she will invite us to take three breaths together, each time with the same effect. After our first breaths she speaks, "My father, George Brian Ewell, was tall, about six feet three ... and skinny." She forms an image of her father as if creating the frontispiece for her story. She describes his walk "A cowboy lope, kind of a gallumphing." She tells us that when she became a storyteller she gave that gallumphing walk to a bear in the story Sody Salaradus. At age 76 Gwenda LedBetter demonstrates that the art of storytelling is the art of becoming a storyteller. For, even as she shared herself with us, she was becoming a storyteller. By beginning in an ordinary prosaic voice and transforming into a poetic voice, Gwenda transforms from an ordinary person talking into a formal storyteller, conjuring. She continues to move easily between these two qualities throughout her program.
 
In 1961 Gwenda LedBetter began work as a professional storyteller in Asheville, North Carolina. She worked as storyteller-in-residence for the public library and on local television as 'the story lady. Her new stage work, Friday's Father, gives us a glimpse of the young storyteller in the making. She offers us a compelling discourse on growing up in the shadow of an alcoholic father while being steeped in stories. She filters her experiences through the stories she has read. Her speech is peppered with allusions to classic folk and fairy tales. They flow from her with the ease and grace of one familiar with her territory, the way a seasoned forester speaks easily of the minutiae of the woods. The connections she makes bring about revelations and resolutions to intense personal enigmas. Without giving answers, her stories lead to forgiveness, acceptance and love.
 
We learn that her mother's first child, a boy, miscarried. She wonders if things would have been better if she had been a boy. She recalls a story about a peasant who wanted a son and tells Hans My Hedgehog with no further effort to explain the transition and none needed. The story leaves us, she says, with a question about forgiveness and we are back in the larger narrative of her childhood. This ranging through and among the stories of experience and the stories of tradition characterizes the evening. She creates a sense of place that operates on many levels: a geographic place, a place in time, and a place in the human experience where pain and resentment meet love and forgiveness. The result, judging from the reviews, was epiphanic.
 
How is this different/unique from other storytelling performances? How is this different from typical Olios? Is Gwenda's performance breaking new ground? How is her performance contributing to storytelling?
 
Here is a performance event in which a single individual recounts and reflects on experience in a manner that is discursive. Although this is not uncommon in storytelling, my intention is to look at how this kind of performance works and what distinguishes it from other forms of theatre.
 
Imagine that you move to a new house in a new city. You are a stranger to the place and the place is strange to you. Over the course of your first several months at this new house, you learn your way around by running various errands: shopping for groceries, going to the theatre, walking in the park, and so on. In time, your new house has become your home: you have made friends, learned the back roads and short cuts, and are conversant with the place as a "local". You are now less of a stranger to the place while the place has become less strange to you. You accomplished this by moving across the territory; by "getting around"; by running about; by discourse.
 
Discourse, from the Latin discursus, means "a running about." By way of discourse, then, the storyteller performs a conversational act that moves from one idea to another typically resulting in a thematically unified composition. To converse is to become familiar with someone or something. Discourse and conversation make up the root actions of a storytelling performance.
 
Essential to this act is the presence of the author. That is, the one from whom the discourse originates. The authority of this person allows for the attainment of "a level of expression surpassing mere acting." Because Gwenda is speaking for and about herself, she is not acting as herself.
 
The act of affecting authorship (as an actor must who impersonates the author) creates a problem of belief. We know, always, that the actor speaking as the author is not the author. When the speaker is the author, we more readily believe we are listening to the voice of experience. The extent to which we are capable and willing to believe the voice of the storyteller, greatly affects the extent to which we are willing to receive the experience. Storytelling, in essence, is concerned with the transferring of experience. We first observe, then we believe, next we experience and finally we understand.
 
Theatre art, in seeking to create a sense of belief, employs a variety of devices. The actors might wear masks or otherwise mask their behavior to embody that of a character. An actor might be employed for each of the people of the story. The stage may be constructed to affect a specific place or to evoke the world of the story. Lighting, costuming, sound design, are other devices serve to direct the audiences experience. The storytelling revival, in an effort to be anti-theatrical has developed its own theatrical form. The use of general lighting allows the storyteller to see the listener. A simple platform limits stage action. Simplicity in design of stage and auditorium affects a sense of the ordinary. The impression sought is that of a common room in which actor and audience are members of a community engaged in a kind of town meeting. The use of large tents, born of necessity, is now emblematic of the storytelling movement. Tented spaces with row upon row of folding chairs addressing a lecturer’s platform, suggests a religious revival setting wherein the audience is congregation and the storyteller is preacher. In modern storytelling performance, this anti-theatricality suggests that no contrivance is needed because the persons speaking are none other than themselves.
 
Yet the devices available to the actor are also available to the storyteller, and can be employed with great effect. For even with the authority of the storyteller, there is a narrative logic at play that requires a certain acceptance on the part of the listener. There are stories within stories, moments of affected characters and dialogues, leaps in historical time and place, conversational asides, and differing perspectives. The listener is asked to accept these transitions without becoming disoriented or disengaged.
 
Gwenda's performance made use of an abstract stage environment and mutable lighting areas. These worked in concert with her to support the narrative logic of her discourse. For example, as she recalls her father sitting at his desk while she plays with her dolls, she moves towards a desk situated in the down right corner of the stage. There, as she alludes to his green glass ashtray, a green light intensifies over the desk. That ashtray and that light come back at a moment of emotional climax later in the evening with powerful effect. On the other side of the stage a narrow carpet defines the space, serving variously as a bay shore, a sidewalk, and the wall of a living room. The subtle play of lights, fading or brightening imperceptibly, work in the background of the listeners’ consciousness to further maintain the heightened trance-like state the storyteller is creating.
 
Another quality of Gwenda’s performance is the particular way she arranges her stories. As she ranges from one event to another, from personal anecdote to folktale, we are tempted to wonder, "What has this got to do with that?" Each story, set side by side, informs on the other. Hans My Hedghog is set beside her father wanting a son; Saturn devouring his children is set beside her father's drunken tirade. Images within one story recall images in another. We hear of children in trees, bleary-eyed giants, cannibals, devouring gods, enchanted men and women, and so on. Each new story, each new image, is introduced into the show like ingredients in an expertly cooked stew. We are served a poetically composed storytelling olio.
 
The olio format, taken from vaudeville and the minstrel show, provided a means to showcase a number of storytellers in one session. Like the use of tents, the olio was born of logistical necessity but became a means of creating an ad-hoc ensemble of speakers. Eventually the discourse of the individual was fit into a group dialogue as each storyteller drew from his or her repertoire to suit the program. Occasionally a storytelling olio will flow in such a way that each story suits the story before, carrying over established motifs or themes creating a coherent program. The resulting composition will appear scripted inasmuch as it has integrity of composition.
 
A good olio results from the ad-hoc company of storytellers listening carefully to one another and selecting stories in such a way as to create a dialogue. One teller will speak, the next will address ideas presented by the first with elaboration and additional material, the next will likewise pick up the developing themes, and so on. This “olio effect” is rarely predictable and usually a happy accident. Yet in Gwenda’s case, the olio is composed and intentional. Gwenda’s program is meaningful not simply because of the stories she tells, but because of the combinatorial she makes from them.
 
The storytelling experience moves from the prosaic to the poetic, from the ordinary world to a rarefied realm of metaphor. During the combinatorial event, with the skillful action of parable, Gwenda sets narrative elements side by side to release meaning. She does this by pointedly referring to traditional stories, in part or in whole, by recalling images such as the green ashtray, and introducing a variety of characters with certain common qualities of whimsy, kindness, eccentricity, and wisdom. The evening climaxes with her realization, late in life, that in truth she loves her father. Yet she continues to explore questions. "Why is it so hard," she asks, "to tell those we care about that we love them?" The point of arrival for her discourse is not in the exclusive place of personal memoir, but in the inclusive ground of traditional story. She tells the tale of Meat Loves Salt. From that old story and, by implication, from all the old stories, a kind of answer is found. "There aren't enough words in the world" she tells us, "to hold all the heart can feel. It's like meat loving salt."
 
Gwenda LedBetter is identified as a professional storyteller, yet her profession is not readily apparent in her demeanor outside the storytelling moment. This may be one reason for some of the confusion and criticism leveled at persons attempting such a career. Gwenda's performance demonstrates that to be a storyteller is to be in the act of telling a story. Those who practice the art of storytelling as a profession are yet not storytellers in their daily persona. They are celebrants, using craft, skill, and inspiration to become storytellers in the communal moment. So it is that the audience enters an ordinary room, the lights are lowered, a dream-state is affected, a celebrant invites us to breathe and conducts a narrative journey: a quasi-religious action that derives from the origins of all collective catharsis. After the dream is ended, the lights slowly brighten, a loud clapping sound wakes us, and we emerge from the cave once again.

Tuesday, January 7, 2025

Walking with Angela

 

Last night I learned of the death of Angela Lloyd

For my first appearance at the Flying Leap Storytelling Festival in Solvang, CA, in 1992, I wrote the story, Sterling. Solvang is a small mountain town north of Santa Barabara. Noted for it's Danish heritage and Danish-style buildings, it is a sort of theme park without rides. There is a small, impressive museum dedicated to Hans Christian Andersen. Sterling concerns a salt shaker who falls in love with the sugar bowl - it is my homage to H.C. Andersen.

Featured at the festival that year was my friend and colleague, Angela Lloyd. A whimsical and eclectic storyteller, with her beribboned 'sunbrella' washboard and kazoo, Angela was charming in the true sense of the word: a magical singing storyteller. I delighted in her company onstage and off. We had worked together with Milbre Burch as the ensemble "Triple Crown Tellers" and often crossed paths at storytelling festival stages in those days. A story of hers tells of the magical pedlar who strings up a clothesline where people can hang up their worries and cares. The pedlar invites them to exchange their troubles for someone else's. As Angela tells the story, with the enchanted ringing of her rainbow bells, our own troubles drift away. She was a true docent of the story realm.

After the festival, the two of us stopped by Nojoqui Falls Park. It was a pleasant sunny day and the park was alive with visiting families. As we approached the falls we delighted at the scenery, the sun, the sounds and sight of children playing. It was a picture-perfect day. But since neither of us had a camera, we decided to capture the scene by improvising poems together.

"Bill-capped boys sparkle the splash water –"

"Rolling musically over stones and trilling sweetly in the rills..."

"Sun-speckled tree cover patchworks of green and oak..."

And so on.

The exact words of our impromptu poetry are lost (though some may yet be found in one of my journals from the era) but the feel and vision of that gentle stroll remains with me, clear and bright. It is not an ecstatic memory, not a moment of high drama or hilarity, but merely a time of simple beauty wrapped in poesy in the company of a fellow story traveler.

Angela was the magic pedlar. She brought us to a place of easy happiness and profound joy. I am grateful to have walked beside her.

What rice was for Sterling, the memory of Angela is for me, and all who knew her: a desiccant against despair.

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Wednesday, May 3, 2023

Cryptobiosis

Recently shared a story at Story Parlor in Asheville for Tom Chalmer's series, 'Listen To This.' His prompt was like rain in the desert. Here's what I said:

 

Here's what I had written:

Memory waits in the soil beneath out feet.

The year was 7 B.C. (Before Children) and we headed out on a road trip across the southwest. From St. Louis, across Kansas and the mind-numbingly flat plains of eastern Colorado, over the stunning peaks and nerve-wracking switch-backs of the rockies and down into the great American desert. We were heading for Mesa Verde, the ancient remains of a once thriving cliff-dwelling city of ancestral Puebloans. The name belies the history, for once the land was verdant, but little green remains.
As it happened, Mesa Verde was closed.
So we learned of another, lesser known, ruin in the desert, Hovenweep. The name is Paiute meaning “deserted place.” We set off on a dirt road into the desert of southwest Colorado, across the border of Utah, through an arid land pock-marked with stoney outcrops and clumps of pinyon pine and juniper. Dusty bunches of sagebrush scattered across the open flats, here and there the soil was blackened in charred, burn patches, and the sun burnished over all. As is often the case with arroyos and desert canyons, you do not see them until you are just approaching their edge. Chasms open suddenly before you, great cracks in the tortured landscape.  One such canyon was Hovenweep. A National Monument established in 1923 and currently celebrating its centennial, but at the time, little known and little visited.
Trafficked by humans for over 10,000 years, settled about 1,000 years ago with stone and brick buildings carefully crafted onto the landscape and tucked into cliff faces, home to several thousand people who farmed, traded, crafted, played, and studied the brilliant stars from a high stone and brick tower that commanded one end of the canyon. Now it was ghostly quiet with rippling heat rising from the expectant soil. We learned the charred patches were actually a fragile, Cryptobiotic soil, filled with cyanobacteria, lichen, fungi, mosses, and a vast microbiome forming a brittle crust over the deeper earth; quiescent and desiccated, but ready to swiftly reconstitute in the presence of water.
We walked along a narrow dirt path from the canyon rim down into the arroyo where a fresh stream once flowed and many voices once echoed off the canyon walls. Here and there were shallow divots carved into the bare rock offering secure footing as we descended. Steps carved for ancient travelers we now used. The only sound was the scuffling of our hiking boots on crumbling sand and stones and an occasional “watch your step.” “Give me your hand.” “Look at that.” “Some place, huh?”
We tried to stay on a path along the base of the cliff in what little shade we could find as the sun bore down from high noon. We squinted in the light bouncing off the sand and stone. Everything had a hot golden luster. We came across some brick walls enclosing a depression into the canyon wall, a nice cool room out of the heat. We snacked and watered ourselves and took in the close comfort of this little shelter. As we sat there, the light shifted and the bright sunlight dimmed. A wind picked up and we peered out to see the sky blackening. The wind whipped up dust devils beyond the the canyon and suddenly thunder broke, lightening flashed and a heavy rain poured down.
We fell back into our dry recess and watched as the rain curtained the doorway. Thunderous booms echoed all around us, water gushed and splashed across the canyon. We cowered together feeling the tremendous force of the storm. After about 30 minutes, the booming moved past, the rain let up, and the storm was gone. Water continued to stream down the canyon walls and along the riverbed. The air was filled with the sound of running water. And then other sounds joined in. There was buzzing as some kind of fly or gnats were suddenly swarming, and bird trills - from a wren that was hopping in and out of the sodden rocks. The air was fresh with that ozone crackle of the storm mixed with the pungent smell of sage. Here and there splotches of color appeared. Tiny yellow and red flowers in rock crevices, Juniper trees glistened, a chipmunk scuttled beneath one, collecting berries. There were little potholes - morteros - holes formed from grinding grain - now filled with water. I bent over one for a drink and saw tiny bugs swimming about - those fairy shrimp they used to sell as “sea monkeys.”  I stood in the center of the renewed stream and marveled at the suddenness of the storm and the suddenness of the life it revived. Cryptobiosis, hidden life, was emerging everywhere. The sun returned and brought a sparkle to the entire scene. I remember marveling at the braided ripple pattern in the water streaming past and wondering if that had inspired weavers and potters to replicate the patterns in their crafting.
The canyon echoed with life. I heard a child laughing and felt that the storm had revived the ghosts of the early Puebloans. It turned out to be a small family also visiting the site and hiking along the same trail. But for a moment, I could feel the rich, verdancy of the place, and appreciate the life that was at home in this now-deserted place.
The water flowed past, the sun warmed and then grew hot. Slowly the life receded to its hiding places. I stood there and felt the burning heat return. But I kept standing. Waiting. Expectant. Suffering the drought while hoping for the coming of another rain.
Still today, every rainfall wakens my cryptobiosis and every drought leaves me hoping.