Wednesday, June 17, 2026

WINDOW

 My favorite subject in school was the window

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There was once a pillow on a bed beside a window.

Every night a head would come into the room and sleep in the pillow's lap.

Every morning, the head would wake and leave.

The pillow remained.

Day in and day out.

The pillow would glance about the room and look outside the window.

The pillow would see the day brighten and darken; the nights pass; the seasons change.

The pillow would watch the trees greening and the clouds gathering; 

the lightening flash, the storms breaking and the rain pattering against the glass.

The pillow would see the clear night sky and the bright stars drifting.

As the head slept in the pillow's lap, the pillow began to wonder,

"Is this all I am meant for? Lying about in bed all day watching the world outside?"

The pillow began to feel something stirring inside.

One spring morning, before the head left the room, it opened the window.

Into the room a spry spring breeze came sniffing and exploring.

The pillow felt the cool air ruffle across the bed.

Then, as the pillow watched, a large black bird alighted on the window sill.

The bird tipped its head to one side and another and then, 

to the pillow's surprise, 

it hopped onto the foot of the bed. 

The pillow watched anxiously as the bird hopped closer...

    closer...

        closer...

It gave a sharp sudden peck at the pillow's case!

The bird buried its beak into the pillow and pulled out a thick tuft

of feathers.

Then it flew away out the window.

"That's odd," thought the pillow, "I did not know I had that in me."

The bird returned

pecked again

and again removed a tuft of feathers.

Other birds came and did the same as the tear in the pillow widened.

The spring breeze played with loose feathers, spinning them out the window.

"At last!" thought the pillow. "I have found that within me which belongs to the world."

Soon all of the pillow's feathers were released and carried off on the wind or out by the birds.

They feathered the spring nests for the birds and flew about among the trees' branches.

They tickled the ears of deer in the fields and the noses of children on swings.

They alighted on glittering streams and sailed off towards the rivers and the sea.

"Now I know who I am. I have gone out the window and joined with the world."

The pillow was happy.


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The head, meanwhile, discovering the torn and empty pillow case,

replaced it with a hypoallergenic pillow

and enjoyed the best night's sleep it had ever known.


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For Gwenda




 

Tuesday, June 16, 2026

I STILL IMAGINE STORIES...

News and memories demand my attention. Worries crowd in among plans. Hopes and fears, whine constantly.

But I imagine stories.

No one else hears them, but they stir and evolve constantly. 

The boy, Ivan, learns the language of the birds, conversing daily with the flicker, the wren, the mocker, and all the inhabitants of the enchanted forest... 

A king gets lost in the woods, and offers riches for a way out... 

Water-bugs twirl in frenzied busyness in the creek beneath the willow; rushing about in a miniature water world. In the reeds, the old bug sits and conjures stories for the less restless ones... 

The rubber bands in the kitchen 'junk' drawer call out when I go looking for a bit of string, or wire, or tape or fasteners; 'pick me!' they cry...

They accompany me as I go about my busyness.

Entering the dense bamboo behind the house to clear brush, the story speaks:

"There are rooms we enter alone.
Destiny waits there.
She entered and met her fate:
sharp, hard, cruel.
Pricked and injured, all she was before fell
fast asleep.
All around her fierce tangles spread:
sharp, hard, cruel.
Thorny briar rose,
high, impenetrable.
Daring princes to come find her..."

I imagine stories. They glow like embers from a dying fire. 

My friend, the artist Nate Barton, writes about carrying embers. "There are things in life that do not arrive fully formed. They begin small. A question. A way of noticing. A pull toward something not yet understood. They do not demand attention, but they ask for it. And if they are ignored too long, they can go out."

Stories ask for my attention. I give them my imagination.

They fill a reservoir behind my silence.

I am only an occasional writer as this blog attests. 

My mode is speaking. I speak when someone listens. 

Now, I am only an occasional speaker. 

But I still imagine stories...

Carrying the Ember – Nate Barton